It’s almost been a year since I decided to make 2014 my #ArtYear, a time frame that will jumpstart what I truly want for the rest of my life — to make art.
I’ve just decided to postpone applying for an MFA for Fall 2015, but that only means I’ll be more prepared, serious, and deserving for 2016. It feels good to make such decision because it takes away the weight of uncertainty that has dragged me for the past few months after False Faces. Lately I’ve been having my scheduled existential crises over the things I should really be doing.
There’s simply too much going on in my head that I cannot get through my day-to-day activities. What’s important, however, is that now, I’ve already figured out a plan that will sustain me until the next crisis hits me. In the next semester, I believe that I can pursue more creative activities (contests, solos, publications, etc.) that will increase my experience in my chosen field. I’ve also looked at my portfolio and have confidently mapped out the direction of my work via my revised artist statement. I realised that I needed my statement to accommodate my ever increasing visual vocabulary of my worldview. In addition, I’ve acquired further information regarding scholarships abroad, so it helps knowing that people can help you in a task that can at times make one feel alone. Lastly, the decision to apply the year after the next sets a fitting goal for me to achieve.
While a friend once quoted someone else saying, “We overestimate what we can do in a day and underestimate what can do in a lifetime.” No one should— and would — be more aggressive in pursuing this than I, but I should also sustain patience and avoid complacence over the course of this arduous journey towards the realisation of my dreams. At oo, seryoso ako sa paggamit ng ‘arduous,’ ‘journey,’ at ‘dreams.’